remember me???

I know it's been about 2 weeks since i've even shown my presence, but i really haven't posted anything substantial in a long time. I don't have a good excuse. Yeah, i've got a lot going on with school, and it was just Thanksgiving, but I've had a lot of down time.

The past couple weeks, Billy and I have been at each other's throats! I think we're over that now, but let me tell you how frustrating it was. I can absolutely attribute it to our lack of communicating during this time. Four out of five of my classes meet at night and Billy works shifts. Last week he was on nights, which meant that he was sleeping during the day time, which was the only time we were really home together. So, we weren't really just hanging out together like we usually do and most of our communicating was done via text message, which we all know is not the greatest way to talk to someone.

I have to admit, that I am also at fault for the bickering. I'm guilty. I don't know what exactly led me to feel this way, but I've been feeling very bored. I don't want to sit in and hang out at home all the time, like we've been doing. Billy gets exhausted and worn out from working shifts, so when he's home he really just wants to kick back and relax. I understand that, and I've tried to be accomodating, especially since we're not rolling around in money and going out costs money. Lately, I'm just antsy to get out. We haven't gone away together since we've been dating and sometimes it's nice to go and stay over in a hotel- not have to clean up, make the bed, cook, etc. It's nice to be taken care of, and I think I'm usually the one who is taking care of others. Don't get me wrong, Billy takes extremely good care of me, and I know that he does everything with me in mind. I guess since I'm not working, and my classes are at night that I've got all this free time and I'm getting bored, and I'm taking it out on the one person who thinks about me before he even thinks about himself.

We did talk about this, and both acknowledged what we've done or not done and I think that's a really important detail in this rambling. All couples experience frustration from one another and bicker and argue and blow things out of proportion (guilty as charged!), but it's definitely not something that's beyond the realm of control. It's probably going to happen again, but it's not worth giving up over. I'm not happy that we get into squabbles over little things, but I am glad that we always reach a resolution without having to feel like we've given in just to appease one another.